Actually, this year.... 308 seems pretty okay... Hope everything goes well....
But, seems that the 203 spirit is still there... Well for now, maybe, we'll just wait and see...
My results this year sucks ttm...
Like 4 Distinctions to make it sound nice but... Its a fact that the others are Bs...
Hmmm... Why did I deprove so much leh?
Lets see.... Well, first, i kinda slacked, second, I was a teeny weeny bit complacent...
I feel so bad towards my parents...
So here are the results...
English:A2(72% Overall, 70% EOY paper)
Math:A1( 80% Overall, 75% paper)
Chinese: A2(71% Overall, 63.5% EOY Paper)
Science:A1??(??% Overall, 71% Paper)
History: B4??(??% Overall, 56.25% Paper)
Geography:B3(68% Overall, 59% EOY Paper)
Literature:B4(61% Overall, 51% EOY paper)
Art:B4 (64% Overall, 57% Paper)
Lol... Pathetic...
I really just want to get Top 10 in class, thats my last wish...
maybe Top 80 in level?
I hope so... But I don't know...
Okay... So EOYs start tomorrow...
I shall try to squeeze everything into my head...
I'll try...
From 5th -13th October...
SAYONARA, BYE, Zai4 Jian4 etc...
BYES....
When you were trying to succeed in your plans...
You would stop at nothing to achieve that...
But now, when u know that it is all over, though it is not because of you...
You stopped trying to please him and flirt around...
Which you did badly at of course...
Now you thought u succeeded, you stopped and started giving him the cold shoulder...
Giving excuses when he wanted to borrow your stuff...
Not going to the library anymore...
This just proves that you have no sense of shame...
I know that you wanted revenge on me...
But you must know that it comes from your heart and not superficial...
That is just so... Despicable...
亏你还想得出,只有你这种人才想得出这种方法。。。。
Anyways...
You won't always succeed trust me if you are reading...
There will be one day where you will be defeated by all of us...
I will make sure that you will be utterly shocked and speechless...
You will be sorry for what you have done...
Wipe that smile off your face, because beneath it is a ugly and disfigured heart
You WILL NOT be first in class anymore for SA2...
Mark my words...
I will work doubly hard... The whole team will...
Together... I am confident that you will be sorry for what you have done to us...
I will NEVER regret my actions..
Especially this time... This is the best choice I have made in my life to have revenge...
And I will remember it for the rest of my life...
If I don't beat you, I am going to try my best, even if it will use up all of my brain cells...
OR even my life...
TRUST ME AND MARK MY WORDS...
I AM GOING TO DIE TRYING...
if that is the price i have to pay to beat you....
I just woke up from a dream i had been having for 6 months...
In fact, its the best dream i had in my life......
Now life is going back to normal...
Dreading school, waiting for fridays etc...
But do you think it is so easy to forget someone so easily?
Its not.... Not at all
It is definitely impossible for me to forget you totally...
You have been part of my life since...
And now you want me to forget about it...
Its impossible... For once, i say its impossible
I really feel like crying... i knew this day would come one day...
After that day, and I just really want to focus on my studies, though it may be impossible, I know
But I know you can do it, I believe you can...
Lets see what fate has in store for us...
I never thought this would happen but apparently it did...
Although it did break my heart, but i believe what we are doing is for our own good...
I will always remember you...
i will keep our memories deep down...
Bury it down where only we know about it...
But if you have anything, dont keep it to yourself...
Share it with me...
Good luck for the upcoming EOYs...
Jiayou, I hope that by giving this up, you can focus more now....
What hurts one the most is actually not physical pain but emotional pain inflicted by some people close to one's heart...
When you do not feel the love that you want or hope to get, you will feel the hurt in your heart and it cannot be taken back...
It will always leave a scar there forever...
Why is this happening??
I don't understand a single bit of it...
It was going so perfectly and smoothly... Why did these hiccups have to happen??
Though I admit that this may be part of the whole process, I still think that it is possible to make this go even more smoothly....
I can feel it... Somehow... I dont know how...
But I can sense it, its still strong and not showing signs of breaking apart....
I hope that this will last forever....
I really like this feeling a lot...
I dont think I can stop myself...
I just went too far....
If I want to blame anybody... I only have myself to blame....
How I wish that I could go back to the time where we could talk for what seems like forever over the phone earlier on and not having you so busy with your studies like revising and so on...
I know you want to get good results and etc....
So I really dont blame you for that...
I know you are not ignoring me...
Bye...
Now.... as reality strikes me... I have noticed that change is constant....
What we thought would never change actually will change the most.....
I never thought that she would do that to me...
After all... I did treat her as a close friend of mine last year and this year and this year...
I did try to give her chances but she did not treasure the chance... So don't blame me for turning my back on you okay...
What you did to me in my personal view was unforgivable... I will never forgive and forget till the day I die...
The pain and hurt you have inflicted me cannot be measured and I will never forget it for the rest of my human life...
WHY?? What did i do wrong... i dont know you anymore...
You seem so different and scary from the past you...
If you want to target me... Then Just target me... Leave the person I love alone...
You know by doing all these... you make me feel so disgusted and dirty when you are in the same room as me?
I feel that the air is sooooo polluted...I want to puke
Please dont do this anymore.... you can hurt me but if you hurt the people whom I love around me... I WILL MAKE YOU PAY FOR WHAT YOU HAVE DONE
Like what we have learnt in Literature... there WILL be divine retribution
Oh yes... I remember... You said that we are the cause of your results which is getting worse...
Let me tell you... This is what you get for doing all those things to us
So no matter how hard you studied for common tests.... It all will not pay off because the school has decided to change the weightage to 70% for class test and 30% for common test
So I know that some of the class test like chinese you did well but those like chemistry and History...
You failed terribly... So yes... This is all caused by yourself
One more thing... you know why you dont understand what you have been taking down and writing in class??
This is because you are just writing like a crazy woman in class and thus... You wont understand a single word of what you wrote... And dont blame teachers for that...
BLAME YOURSELF!!!!!
Last thing before I end off.... If you think that using him as a chip on you chessboard to kill me off the other side will work, let me tell you you will fail... I trust him for not doing that to me....
If you think that you have done the right thing by betraying me and my trust in you... PLEASE TAKE A LOOK IN THE MIRROR and give yourself a slap because I put this post here meant for you to see....
I wanted to do it myself but I dont want to be blacklisted by the DMs... So I'd rather you do it yourself
Oh Yes... Stop spreading untrue rumors about her in class... She did not even say anything about and even feels guilty for not liking you... HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT ABOUT HER
you a a person who uses unscrupulous means to get what you want... I have seen your true colours...
I hope that who you are staring at someone, your eyeballs will POP OUT...Since you like to stare so much and you suspect others so much so why dont you just dig out your eyes so you dont need to see anything... That would be the best...
Stop sticking with other people when you cant find friends...
This is because of you SUCKY ATTITUDE which puts people off
I really regretted knowing you man...
I hope that I will never have to see you again from next year on...
Get lost from my life...
I dont hide stuff from you unlike you who likes to backstab people by being a hypocrite... So fake... I really want to say this to you...
SCRAM from my life and my friends lives too...
The biggest mistake I made in my life was to know you and treat you as a friend...
I will do things in the open and not in the dark where you live...